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Saturday, October 27, 2007

ginga bread

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Patricia_Crone

I like her voice
and her views

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

The earth at night



To view the picture in full size visit:
http://moonlightingw.blogspot.com/.

Click on it to goto the medium sized photo.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

No pictures of joy



Joy is a tiny lunar crater located in the irregular ground just to the west of Mare Serenitatis. It is a circular, cup-shaped feature with a slightly raised rim. The crater was designated 'Hadley A' until it was renamed by the IAU. The Mons Hadley mountain is located to the west-northwest in the Montes Apenninus range.

But here's crater lake:

Please,Click to enlarge the picture's beautiful big

JOY

Copernicus is a prominent lunar impact crater located in eastern Oceanus Procellarum. The crater Copernicus is estimated to be about 800 million years old, and typifies craters that formed during the Copernican period in that it has a prominent ray system.

Monday, October 22, 2007

ethereal mosaic prozaic

sleepily odd
confusedly strange
and shattered to a grief principle higlighting the joy of waiting.
There once was a man from Istambul
...
i don't know any limericks...

http://www.sullivan-county.com/identity/
Lewis Loflin and Willie Matin debates...
http://www.danielpipes.org/comments/54469

This charector doesn't like Noam Chomsky either...
http://www.sullivan-county.com/id2/index1.htm

When has any Pakistani newpaper ever published a cartoon of a montrous-looking "Jewish" Nazi???
I mean that's absurd beyond rendition:
the Nazis oppressed Jews, hellooo????

however since it is against the law to make and publish any anti-semitic(since they are considered to be racist) cartoons and articles I feel that Mr.Loflin has to answer to the law.

http://www.biblebelievers.org.au/jews.htm
one of Willie Martin's articles...

What I'm confused about, is how ppl convert to Judaism, I mean if they're supposed to have the blood of Jacob...

Sunday, October 21, 2007

passive smoking

‘You look pale, it’s so much fun when teachers get nervous” Nadir eyed him doggedly
“He’s not ‘your’ teacher’’ I begged to differ, almost chivalrous, it was more his joy than his teasing pupils that bugged me.

‘I just had to’ she droned weakly ,as her mouth left his and she tried to make off, he yanked her by the arm and you know…
“This is how it’s done. If you must plant a kiss do it right”
“I stand corrected…was that better?”
“A little oddball-ish, try this?”
“That ‘is’ better!”
“You see the benefits of learning!”
“Of being taught”
“Uh Hun… would you mind sitting through this class” he made room on his lap
“Well, it is just so interesting and I’m in no hurry”
“Atta girl always ready for a challenge… (She kissed him hard) Now you’re getting the hang of it”
“They say practice makes perfect”
“I don’t want you doing any homework for this class” he admonished sternly
“No homework!” she Exclaimed enthralled, “this is my favorite class of all”
They continued with their exercises when a stranger walked in.

“I fell on him...accidentally” she stumbled verbally.
“Um yeah” the entrant answered… as sir asked with loving concern , “you didn’t hurt yourself did you?” holding her hands , arms legs , kissing her head as she fumbled about confused.
To this the newcomer objected, “Let her alone”
“It is alright” she mumbled walking out with the suddenly personal intruder
“No it isn’t teachers can’t do that” the boy rambled on, outraged.
“I fell on him okay, he was just comforting me”
“I saw the way he mauled you”
“Just shut up”
“What is it, are you ashamed of it?”
“It is none of your business, I don’t even know you”
“But”
“Oh just shut up already!!!”

Thursday, October 18, 2007

You say you'll leave me... all the riches

The unfortunate truth is fortunate indeedy...I've found that virtue reaps favour in constipated discomfort only to sing bad songs and badly too.
I had the strangest dream last night , reminding me of the unsafety(?) of my home. Bomb blasts, Benazir's back.'Mohsin Abbas dawn news' feedback@dawnnews.tv
Well I've nightmares with linionesses(no mane) tapping against my windows not roaring or anything. I understand that they hunt. Or maybe they were shaved lions who decided on this rare occasion to not roar.
This however isn't my first lion dream, I wonder what they symbolize.
"No muslim can attack any woman, as Islam prohibits it"-BB...
Wasn't the suicide-bombing predicted?
Anyway the T.V's buzzing behind me in slow depressive tones , remniscing over yesterday:
www.dawn.com probably has done a lot of coverage.
You say you want diamonds in a ring of gold

you say you want love to work out right
... to last through the night

all the promises we made from the cradle to the grave when all I want is you...

Anyway I thought I had something to write.
How about a Kumun , a follow-up on the lumun and the worldmun , with teams from Karachi participating??
perhaps 'man proposes, God disposes'

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Anger management-yesterday

So,how does this go? "my name is, mein nama est Nadia and I'm an anger-holic??"
anyway so it be and so it is. I have a problem,it stinks, it doesn't work for me. I know it's caused by anxiety, which is caused by people and my inability to adapt and cope with weird illegal uncomfortable irreligious situations. funny how even the most normal looking folks do the strangest most dastardly things. Anyway i can't really do anything about them , so little things trigger and charge me up to a surmountable fit of rage that continues for an entire day, which in turn is completely wasted(my work proliferates for the next day thereof and therefore)and ultimately simmers to a morning headache.
The stimulus is usually my mother, because she's trying to help.and while I have no doubt about her philanthropic intentions, it is a pain indeed. and I don't understand why mothers can't take a hint.I know that's horrible of me.
However ignoring my bouts of rage until their momentum rises to an apex only leads to trouble and I'm sure every mother who goes through life thinking that she's being charitible and nice when she's annoying you, knows surely(not surly, which is another word) that she has it coming.
To what avail? to what point? it's as though the book of life has shifted into a dusty corner , has been read and reread and each every time the words remain unchanged. yet somehow there is a want of an end not yet reached by a means used and abused to exhaustion.
Anyway I used every swear word i know and understandibly in reation, my ma went ballistic. I don't see fasting as a testament to my faith rather a decent attempt to improve(it and myself). and attempts can be unsuccesful(don't I know it).
What is lucid however is that pages need be turned and i'll have to change,since she's never going to. as she was being nice right , by serving me when i want to be left alone by doing stupid dances in front of my so-called friends. it's okay when i do it they're mine , but it's embarrasing when she does. and there are other habits of 'wannabe cool' mum stereotype that cling onto her like tar on a 'getting paved again' karachi road.
I don't wish to discuss it however.I need to be more tolerate less distracted, blame less, move on, if smething bothers me I can try talking about candy canes and butterflies though when ur angry spite seeps through always, thus that would be utterly pointless, except to get a laugh from ma initially.
There's excercise, yoga , seeing a therapist? continuing learning german , making a time-table, that as history has shown I won't follow.Perhaps prayer and breathing excercises might help, if the pollution lets me inhale an oxy-friendly ercentage of toxins and others chemicals.Karachi's the most polluted city in the world. dehli comes second, number 13 is New York.
my daddy thinks that if i'm upset with amma/ma then i'm suddenly inclined to liking him which is not the case at all. That kind of sits at a certain fixed tempo but it's never enough to blow me to bits. I think it's because I expect from mother. 'if you expect great things you're bound to get disappointed or to not rejoice if things work out."i expect her to understand ans she acts like she does(like all mamas0 but she doesn't so it's always a disaster waiting to happen being fed with lies until the truth demands a part and wrecks everything.
Toodles
keep breathing
even if the good air/bad air ratio isn't exactly healthy/salubrious??
carry your parahernalia and off to work...
life is a fine thread of do's and don't's ...
scripted for those you cannot read...
I meant to write 'who' not 'you' but this fits.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

nice blog

http://tiarasmussensblog.blogspot.com/2007/10/john-polkinhorne.html

hoping karma will leave a comment
though I don't really care for it(or so I claim 'cause I'm not getting any... well, that too hmmph I'm not high on rape!ten-foot distant please! beware of pepper spray and tear-gas).
thinking of Einstein's TOE (the theory of everything)...
I'm reminded of the testimonial I wrote for ayesha on orkut:
"kahaan ho tum
chalaay aao muhobbat ka bulawa hai

Ayesha's really funny,friendly,cute and pretty(and so aware of it :P, and that's a good thing)
Keyword:'CONFIDENCE'
Ayesha has an aura of beauty trust joy oozing out of her (even when she's complaining)
Her frequent foot photography , made me wonder if she had this fashionable reckoning affinity towards her massive and delightful sandal/shoe collection or maybe she (like Albert Einstein)was interested in the T.O.E (theory of everything(seriously I'm not making T.O.E up))some claim the string theory(the smallest particle in everything is a minscule vibrating string) is the T.O.E
('wonder how ppl distinguish between freak science and theorectical physics)

Anyway ,I was talking about Ayesha , who according to the above mentioned theory is made up of atoms made of electrons and nuclei , which in turn are made up of quarks which are made up of vibrating strings :O i.e Ayesha is a collosal manifestation of a zillion dancing strings(as are we all muhaha)"

Karachi's the most pollluted city in the world.
Is there any way I can mark the blogs I've commented on, apart from posting links?
www.cliparound.com/tag/trading - 38k
:I don't know what this is is

no luck with church-art or David and goliath...http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/David_and_goliath

though cliv and ture are tussling in my head
I'll try 'top-wall-corner'?
nothing zero zilch
alas!
maybe I'll remember.

new-bie


I don't know how long I have to wait before I shake-off this new-kid-on-the-block image.Albeit and admittedly it is nice.As if I'm almost invisible , the world is my sounding board and couldn't careless.'like sreaming to deaf ears or not screaming at all, just thinking out loud or something of the like.
In the morning my Parents celebrate their vows with a good ol' verbal brawl, spangled with colourful vernacular and sweet succulent sarcasm it's quite moving but it doesn't drive me to tears.I guess I'm paralyzed to it's momentum and frequency, enough to solemnly state that it doesn't affect me at all, except for my occasional vomit of spite on this very page.
You're witnessing history in the making 'fellas. Don't be crass now.I cut my foot in passing. Through my room , my pa calls it 'The king's highway' 'cause every one's cruising through it, bipeds, quadpedals(my cats)... I bet there are eight legged spiders too,(which creatively manifest their future domains in every top-wall-corner crevice in my room.Top-wall-corner-crevice I knew the word for that one! I'll probably have to wiki 'church art' and find it.Wall-corner-crevice! hark barf and bah...hmm anyway.Spider-web decorum is hot!

Self-talk therapy , guess i don't really need it since I'm A-okay or so I insist , but you know mothers and doctors, and mothers who are doctors, well it is highly likely that you don't. But I do and have one regrettably.
Any breathing space I get my grip on is a welcome escape from hypochondria.
what's on your face?
what's onyour foot?
recently I threw her down with continuous 'what's on my leg?'
my leg is an onus Picasso would be proud of , incarcerated severed spotty dotty dry and mucky ... it all started earlier this month when i aggresively plucked a hair and a boyle resulted. Horribly painful, looked like sonething out of a horror movie..still does actually , but in a different way. anyway I kept showing her my ghoul-like leg and it badgered her to the bone and mummy's all humourous spite when she's like that but oh Fun!
I could be the devil!
whooops sorry.
just a little colorful chatter folks no lascivious intent here... though I have been acccused of being gauche and uncouth quite an elusive bit.
well hiya and biya!
mua
gracious gracious
see you later on 'wet wild and woolies' when I'm no longer pathologically drunk.
what the word for foot, 'podo-??'?

paraphernalia-everyday needs-provisions
it means a host of other things but I'll go with that one for today.
lubricious is different however
it's like lewd intentionaly rude about sexual matters
very different from just being open.

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

guten morgen

http://www.thecitizensfoundation.org/how_you_can_help/donation_methods.php?id=5&query_dir=how_you_can_help&query_focus=donation_methods

education for the poor

wie gehts dir?
gut sehr gut

Tag
toll
Wie heißt du?
wee hies du
ich nama es Nadia.
wie bitte?
woher kommest du?
hmm
grune
my sister got a green car .
Ich spreche nur ein bisschen
ein is one ich is i bisschen is little and spreche is speak.
Woher kommest du?
wo here coms du...
from where come you/
ich komme aus Pakistan
i come from/out of "
ish comma iooz ...
Du sprichst sehr gut Deutsch.
or
Sie sprechen sehr gut Deutsch.
You speak German very well.
deutsch-land(lunt)
ich komme aus deuschland...nien??

Monday, October 8, 2007

this is informative

http://biladsham.blogspot.com/
http://www.mcspotlight.org/people/interviews/ritzer_george.html

creative freedom
"Personal Daily Horoscope of Monday, 8 October 2007
for Nadia Siddiqi, born 27 November 1985

©Astrodienst AG

Subjective thinking
Weak, transient effect: This influence can signify a critical time in your communications with the people around you, particularly those with whom you are intimately involved. The danger is that your feelings and emotions will overwhelm your rational intellect, making your thinking so subjective that no one else will be able to relate to what you say. Nevertheless you have a strong need to communicate about your emotions. You should avoid dealing with controversy by changing your own views every time someone disagrees with them. You will tend now to change your views according to the prevailing wind, but this may result in compromising yourself if the people you have "agreed" with compare viewpoints. However, it is natural for your opinions to be in a state of flux at this time. Just be honest about admitting it.

The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today:
Moon Square Mercury , exact at 05:24
activity period from 7 October 2007 to 8 October 2007."
-www.astro.com

Nadia siddiqi


http://www.emmahumphreys.org/nadia.html
she's Nadia siddiqui though.
but cool.
hmm
feminists against wife/woman-bashing
however this picture's mine.

so woman-bashing what's that about? anger-relief, being mental, owning a person , marking ur territory
I have one thing to say to you mr's and mis's (ha Mrs)
don't!
This public service message was brought to you by
Nadia shireen siddiqi
happy blogging

Disney-fication

The American dream?
"Karen Halttunen delivered a speech that would be published in American Quarterly the following year, entitled “Groundwork: American Studies in Place.” She discussed the “disneyfication” of American place-making; the replacement of reality with an idealized vision that engenders racism and sexism. What occurs in disneyfication is the substitution of place with an idea – one that is idealized, homogenous, and limiting. Disneyfication is problematic in that it only presents a simplified version of reality. The name obviously comes from Disney, whose presentation of ideas to children has traditionally been an idealized, optimistic representation of the world that doesn’t engage the realities of the world. This amounts to the filtration or censorship of ideas – ideas that fall outside a utopian vision of reality are eliminated."http://www.davelester.org/category/second-life/
Anomie reinvented...hmm
'Modern Times'Charlie Chaplin Film about alienation from monotonous unrewarding work in a Fordist company (I think?)
Ritzer's macdonaldisation
irrationality
homgeniety
...
the vividly chaotic assumption of the 'known'-existence of one apophtegm, one ruling ideology, one indiscriminate tautology,one grand truth...Stifling opinions,perpectives,culture,diversity, lateral thinking,tolerance? and the like, entirely.
I'm thinking about joining second life,I'm afraid it might be too time-consuming.
SIMS with real people???
M.U.D
'should check it out in the holidays

sell yourself- hail to the abnoxious con-artist

The great fanciful curator of the continual brain-biting offence of theft perhaps caused by an irreversible case of kleptomania??strolls in with a wily rictus painted on his face, the devil's in the detail they say, they who?
What I can't stand is the salesperson demeanor. That wanton casual attitude that isn't casual at all maybe sleezy maybe fake maybe a little daunting in a way that it makes you clench your purse tighter or even strangely concious of ur sternum...what is marketing , sorry for being overly overtly simplistic and satirical about this but yes what is marketing?
"The art of selling to people who don't originally want to buy"
to me that's the devil's work it doesn't even pretend not to be sinister or gauche. It is exactly what it poses as: a sleazy guy in an expensive suit playing 'chase the fanny??"

Okay that was over the top. I'll just go with an analysis that makes me come-off as less spiteful and more annoying.
i was rude today very rude...to one such charector. and I feel bad 'cause it happens to be my father(though the entire category of men of that nature irks me to respite). 'but not bad enough to apologise 'cause that's only asking for more.

I understand that MBAs and salesperson's of the like are taught to sell and oner-up and perhaps even cheat and steal and be total ruthless self-selling self-centered pigs and it isn't their fault therefore and then there's the pat on the back that they give themselves 'I duped her/him!" look at me.

and for what? standing forcibly at a person's doorstep selling encyclopedias to those who can't read.
maybe I overreacted
this instance was no more annying than the rest but I barked and I feel exactly as bad as he wants me to, which means he's giving himself kudos.

anyway i'm learning German online and since this computer lies in the ultimate no-privacy hell-zone AKA my living room.I can't repeat words out loud without whoever wants to listen, listening.
Wie gehts?
means "how are you?"
gut means good
there's also the obvious:hallo
Anyway so he comes up and starts yapping about Germany(and he doesn't know German)
and how (in his gimmicky salesperson style) he 'happened'to 'overhear' me practising 'wee gates'(which isn't how it's pronounced it is more like 'gits' or something)and so I correct his pronunciation 'I'm only 'just' learning myself'
so he gets defensive(again all smirky smug one-uppy and unreal defensive, not the usual natural defensive) and says you mispronounced 'und' it's oond(I think it's actually ount-ish) right. So I snapped (naturally defensive) and I kinda felt bad 'cause he didn't snap at me but that doesn't remove his intention hmm
thus this somewhat shaky tirade.

Anyway, it really isn't about that. Moreover it concerns the need to study alone without interruption and so on. And the whole grinning grinch type just gets on my nerves.

Sunday, October 7, 2007

WTO-A very important cause

http://www.worldtoilet.org/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=92
You might think this is funny or some kooky-gibber-jabber from mad-magazine but bathroom privacy is a very serious, sensitive and important issue.
This W.T.O works to help people avoid abuse and contracting disease by informing people of the importance of things like cleanliness(water shortage leaves certain people without flushes,or the luxury of washing their hands(and other things no water or toilet paper) each time they go,others still, have no access to any toilet(or a variation of one, suited to their limited/ing resources) at all).
This org also works to build public loos in such areas where people can poop in privacy.I remember reading this article in the grammarian'99 about the marvel of the W.c. after a fgew lewd less than funny jokes on the Boy's urinal and bullies as such ....moving on , yes ahead of that , there was a nice little para on the wonderful working of the flush. that i would gladly add here changing the words and sentence-structure in case this could turn into a copyright violation case.Anyway here goes:

What was I looking for? unedited blog crap from my msn space

What was I looking for?

The path is long; the road rough and blinking signs everywhere: some distracting, some enticing and some for the hopeless wanderer who keeps walking on. To where, the scent draws him/us, closer without reason except for reasonable doubt, curiosity reaching out pulling us/him/‘children of the age’/rats like muses, pied pipers and sirens. The rapture of endless possibility, what can be, as opposed to what is/was but something far away in a distance, across oceans, landscapes, skies and realms? Seven proceeds, forever grounding us to our fate, or what we believe to be set for us to kill that charge, to stifle the impetus of dreams, we wander still hoping, some call them moods, others insanity loneliness? boredom?, dynamism, the want for something different, to make a difference, to control a desirable brothel of devout followers, led blindly to the image, that dim green light which recedes as you approach it, imaginary untouchable and always distant. That’s capitalism in a nutshell, a drive towards something that is infinite in amount and distance, conjured by something better and better but never the best. You can never content yourself with what you have because there is so much more awaiting you, up for grabs. That opportunity you missed, that game-show you should’ve been on, the millions you could’ve made. The money/time you lost because you didn’t take a lucky initiative.

First rule: the more money you have, the more money you can make, money in the bank grows on interest, the bank profits ruthlessly more (especially in ‘Islamic banking where they ‘don’t’ even give customers a bite of their profit (in the name of interest), and your money loses value with the course of inflation, in which case there ‘is’ no incentive to keep money in the bank ‘better to invest it in plots of land and other profit making devices. Invest in stocks? (No stockbroker claims to really know anything about stocks, albeit many are employed because they can sell anyway.)Invest in anything use ‘capital’. The more money you have, the more interest you’ll get, if you don’t have at least a certain amount of money you will get no interest at all and your money will in time ‘lose’ value, and incur the loss, from what you could’ve made from it, if you accumulated enough, to put in a bank. “The rich get richer, the poor get poorer.”

Second rule: steal people’s ideas publicize them, Bill Gates did, and it is the American way. If you can’t think something up rob someone who can and take all the credit ‘cause the other person was a sitting duck. You gave the idea value by selling it, without being sold, it wouldn’t ‘have’ value/a price tag. As unethical, ruthless and stupendous that logic is, it works. As the saying goes: It’s a dog eat dog town.

Third rule; Move it, hut two three four, yes motility is the key to success; it was Hewlett & Packard that made the wandering manager rule. They were/are right, not just to gain information but to use it. We all know how easy it is to become a celebrity? Why don’t we jump at the chance, we have ‘more’ interesting lives than most writers why not bring it to the screen, simply because we don’t want to move and be pushed around? Easy industries fear competition, because it’s so easy to show them up. The easier a job, the harder it is to get it, because the founding thespians/entrepreneurs monopolize it. Own it. ‘We were here first’ is all it comes down to.

Who doesn’t have talent? Who doesn’t have a face/personality that projects ordinary people, who can’t play themselves? God’s script is the best script ever written without contest, and we all have our scripts and we play our roles better than anyone can/could. So what’s up with watching other people do things we can relate to? Individualism? Narcissism? Or simply laziness? Maybe it makes us feel like we belong, as though we aren’t alone, someone ‘cares’ enough about us to imitate us on screen; ‘imitation is the best form of flattery’, make it glitzy and glamorous and it all the more flattering, it allows us to brag to ourselves about how we could do/are doing so much better/more. And then resent them for the money they make and don’t really deserve as our jobs serve greater purpose, ‘we’ perform higher functions. And they make money off standing ovations, simply by applauding ‘us’ and we applaud them for their minute effort? ‘Make it real’ cut the superficiality/glitz out, the closer they get to being us, the more we clap and the more money ‘they’ make.

That’s what reality shows are for… who better than a doctor to play one, an actual patient works better than a dummy with ketchup spurted on his/her belly?, is privacy really ‘that’ big an issue? If ‘creative’ artists can see the real thing to spruce up a fake blood sauce, why can’t the audience see it? If you’re willing to enact it why not show the real thing? It costs less money, is far more genuine, why not? Maybe the seriousness of our jobs is at stake. Maybe it’s the aforementioned ‘first rule’? We feel that because we don’t use/acquire/require a lot of money to do what we do best we are being exploited. We are robbed of the money we could’ve made if we were frauds/ actors/not playing ourselves but ineffectively attempting to play others. So doctors/professionals write scripts for shows and profit from the ‘art’ rather than the ‘actuality’ while using their credibility to claim to portray the real thing. Of course they couldn’t do this if they were working at the time; Emergency room medical personnel wouldn’t have that kind of time. So the ruse is unveiled they project their version of the past and inject general knowledge/hearsay/ secondhand information into the fictitious enactment of the present/future.

So, we live in an age of corruption, nepotism, gambling, dissatisfaction/anomie /disenchantment and we tolerate it in the name of meritocratic ‘competition’/capitalism. Those who have money generate it; those who don’t, are stuck in themselves, unless they walk the extra mile or simply get lucky, play that winning bid/gamble. Who wants the stats? How many upwardly mobile entrepreneurs took a ‘risk’ requiring only ‘dumb luck’ to get to where they are? All of them. And how many ‘risk takers’ actuality make it? A few, is it because of ‘meritocracy’? Is it the intelligent, the talented, the genius or simply the big street-smart bully with his gang of lumber heads that takes all? What is the ‘capitalist’ debate? It’s a stability model, Survival of the fittest ‘sell yourself’, forget ethics, chuck morality, use sources eat off your daddy’s pocket. The rich get richer and the poor get poorer, we know why, you know why? Then what is the problem why stick with a disparate system that does not work?

Insecurity arrogance, we are afraid of ‘real’ competition, we are afraid of getting our worth, in the words used to describe the alternate system of government of the Marxist Lenin ‘To each according to his/her needs, from each according to his/her ability”. Russia had 100 % literacy, 100%employment and was the best scientific innovator in the world at that time, under that rule, in his time. The statistics speak for themselves. We’d rather stick to chance/faith/the gamble than rise/fall to ourselves: our actual worth, true merit. To live in a world where words actually mean something, where right is right and wrong is wrong, justice ‘is’ served. No, we find comfort in lies, fraud and acting. We find comfort in the idea of being ‘blessed’ with no effort/fault of our own. We alienate ourselves from truth because we are afraid of how it might hurt: always going for grabs, crying over missed ‘opportunity’, deriving satisfaction from winning that whopping fortune from a silly old lottery ticket. We don’t care about merit, of ‘whether’ we ‘deserve’ money. We use the word in our defense, but no, it isn’t merit: It’s gambling and no ethic/religion/moral can defend it.

How is ability or need measured? I don’t agree with that philosophy/concept, simply because there is no real measure of aptitude or requirement. There’s test-taking , but that measures test-taking skills, your ability to reproduce and memorize information collected and discovered by somebody else, that is what will take you to Harvard/MIT(no Einstein or Thomas Edison there, neither went to any fancy schmancy schools, no ‘inventor’/’creative’/.‘genius’ ever did, feel free to contest me on that, even Harvard admits it’s true) and/or having a rich parent with connections not test taking skills, but people with connections, with rich daddies with similar jobs ‘do’ better, than people who get good scores at ivy league schools, because they have know-how, nepotism works, look at Bush he’s no exception, what holds him up? His government, his lobby, the senate that supports him, he’s not doing a one-man job; it’s the entire constitution, who in the UN council voted for the war in Iraq? The US vetoed the majority vote. Who in the US senate did ‘not’ vote for the Iraq war? Was it Kerry, no…Ladies and gentlemen, the senate controls the president. Bush’s first term, a lot of Muslims voted for him, because of Hilary Clinton’s New York address, in which she supported Israel against Palestine to win the New York Jewish majority and become senator. The second time ‘round Bush Jr. had a Christian evangelist following, after Condoleezza Rice, President’s ‘speech writer’ (and daughter of a ‘priest/preacher’ was it? No…but something similar), wrote Mr. Bush a tirade with the word ‘crusades’ on emphasis: The next president of the United States? Who knows?

No, it is not about ability or need but simply fairness, ‘equal’ opportunity, we were ‘All’ created with ‘equal’ rights , we should have an equal education , an equal standing in society and equal opportunity to do what we can with Passion and ‘skill’. I’m not saying everybody should be a doctor, but everyone should be given the ‘chance’ to make that ‘choice’ irrespective of class/status/money/where friends and family stand. We should take/give tests, that is how we commend/use the knowledge accumulated by great minds and excelling in the right tests makes us job-worthy, information/time efficiency is what is tested and is ‘very’ useful. Maybe like most of Europe we should have a socialist government where education and basic provisions are free for all? Quality control, standard and standardization: Who/what will insure that? Corrupt officials; is it a matter of trust or being trustworthy? Insecurity jumps right back , it’s as though we trust ourselves to foul up and therefore ‘try’ nothing, ‘stability’ model ,peace: leave things as they are and whine about it. That is our dictum and our fault.

A system of equal opportunity, ‘capitalism’ assumes a zero-sum game, i.e. all jobs are occupied(classical economic full employment assumption), all resources are efficiently used, the scenario is as ‘perfect’ as it can be and success and failure is up to the players even though there is a grand divide between the haves and have-nots. China is still 80% communist and her ‘open’ economy works with a parody of rules, regulations and restrictions, this is not a ‘golden’ example of capitalist victory as is so frequently propagated as. The alternate assumptions are simple, there isn’t full employment, jobs are created as people ‘need’ (demandàsupply) work, not people employed as ‘required’. Confusingly the demand supply could work in the opposite direction as jobs ‘pay’, employees are the ‘product/sales item’ not the customers therefore prospective employees should make themselves desirable and hirable. The truth is that it works both ways both employees and jobs are ‘in’ demand , both are created to fulfill/balance-out that demand and both increase over time , the efficiency of this process is questionable. Is the best available person for the job hired setting corruption and nepotism aside? There is still the ‘likeability factor, ‘there is no accounting for taste’, and as Max Weber pointed out complete objectivity cannot be reached, taste will always override commonsense and research, if you ‘don’t like a person, maybe he smells or picked his nose or doesn’t ‘fit’ your individual criterion/taste you will instead hire somebody who does, because you’ll feel more comfortable with/ (have more trust/confidence in) an employee you ‘like’. Even you go against your preference, you will be less tolerant of this person and he/she wouldn’t last very long, irrespective of his/her degree/qualification.

Then there is the ‘right’ applicants are you getting a slice of the ‘right’ cake? Job descriptions/pre requisites are not detailed, the kind of person you want to hire may not even know it. It is a matter of information and motility as well pride and prejudice. People don’t know what they’re best suited for and neither do companies or even career organizations, an organized efficient system would not have these problems. If every member of a population was trained under the same system of schooling, measured by the same criteria then a true evaluation would be possible as was the case in Russia. Presently, it is not possible to evaluate where you stand. After the evaluation process career/job selection would be much easier, as ‘standardized’ schools do not have problems with being ‘recognized’ or ‘good enough’ simply because they are all the same. Equal education and equal opportunity, even if extra-tuitions are not permitted students will be home schooled, and yes ‘advantages’ and disparities will still be there, but a lot of ‘schooling’ prejudice will end. As there will be no complexes about better/worse school/schooling, everyone will believe in a fair chance and put in all they’ve got to be ‘good enough’ for the professions they want to get into respectively. Belief is a strong thing and ‘organization patriotism’ is vile that makes the ‘system’ superior to the individual. You cannot allow people to identify themselves as ‘cogs in a big machine’, we are not that, the individual is higher than the system; individuals create systems not vice versa. ‘Elitist’ ‘English medium’ ‘Cambridge system’ ‘London School system’ remnants of our anglophile heritage, meaningless totems we use to get that extra pomp. there are intermediate students getting scholarships to IVY league schools, their system of education is actually closer to the ‘American’ high school, a lot of ‘accented’ American citizens actually study intermediate when they come here,

1) Well it is because the Cambridge system requires that they take their O’ level exams and ‘then’ two years of A ’levels

2) It costs a lot more

But ‘our’ false complexity filled ‘British’ snobbery compels us to look down on them as they resent and look down on us. Then their ‘British’ inferiority complex, they want to be ‘American’ and think they’re too snotty to be colloquial. I, for one, have from childhood to now been bugged about my ‘so-called’ American accent. Nothing’s acceptable, everything’s inferior AND YET IMPRESSIVE: Leg-pulling horny ‘British’ comedy/mockery.

I had a friend; she went to school on a public bus and a girl in metric SPAT on her, why? O’ level snob. My ‘friend was ‘not’ good-looking, humble, shy and not at all offensive. Her crime was simple: O’ level snob. It’s the same the other way around.

Driving off to somewhere new, I wonder where the spoke of wheel will stop me, or maybe I await the ‘dhujh’ of my engine when the petrol needle halts at empty. Nothing breaks me, plastic bags flying in the deserted sandy landscape worthy of its name. I drive on unafraid unmoved awaiting something… what is it that I wait for? Advancement change? Beauty? Freedom? fragmented torn and chivalrous I stand without direction and face for I have lost myself time and time again awaiting silly signs and totems ruled by indecision , torn apart , whimsically avoiding my task.

“Actions speak louder than words’ seems that every military leader we’ve had says that, not that the politicians are bearable or that it isn’t a ‘welcome’ change. It wakes us up to what we know and knows we will not ‘act’. Funny and ironic the gist of the civilian mentality, we are back to the ‘stability’ model. Peace is only achieved when problems are resolved it isn’t passively awaiting the barbarians. ‘Act’ don’t starve yourself get up and eat, do everything to survive , that ‘is’ what religion dictates, on the one hand there is tolerance on the other: “fight with those who fight with you’.

V for vendetta, interesting film, does it offer any new information? I think not, but it sums up a lot quite nicely: neatly.


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greed or blind injustice
http://www.dawn.com/2006/07/18/top1.htm

What was I looking for?

The path is long; the road rough and blinking signs everywhere: some distracting some enticing and some for the hopeless wanderer who keeps walking on. To where, the scent draws him/us, closer without reason except for reasonable doubt, curiosity reaching out pulling us/him/‘children of the age’/rats like muses, pied pipers and sirens. The rapture of endless possibility, what can be, as opposed to what is/was but something far away in a distance, across oceans, landscapes, skies and realms? Seven proceeds, forever grounding us to our fate, or what we believe to be set for us to kill that charge, to stifle the impetus of dreams, we wander still hoping, some call them moods, others insanity loneliness boredom, dynamism, the want for something different, to make a difference, to control a desirable brothel of devout followers, led blindly to the image, that dim green light which recedes as you approach it, imaginary untouchable and always distant. That’s capitalism in a nutshell, a drive towards something that is infinite in amount and distance, conjured by something better and better but never the best. You can never content yourself with what you have because there is so much more awaiting you, up for grabs. That opportunity you missed, that game-show you should’ve been on, the millions you could’ve made. The money/time you lost because you didn’t take a lucky initiative.

First rule: the more money you have, the more money you can make, money in the bank grows on interest, the bank profits ruthlessly more (especially in ‘Islamic where they ‘don’t’ even give customers a bite of their profit (in the name of interest), and your money loses value with the course of inflation, in which case there ‘is’ no incentive to keep money in the bank ‘better to invest it in plots of land and other profit making devices. Invest in stocks? (No stockbroker claims to really know anything about stocks, albeit many are employed because they can sell anyway.)Invest in anything use ‘capital’. The more money you have, the more interest you’ll get, if you don’t have at least a certain amount of money you will get no interest at all and your money will in time ‘lose’ value, and incur the loss, from what you could’ve made from it, if you accumulated enough, to put in a bank. “The richer get richer, the poor get poorer.”

Second rule: steal people’s ideas publicize them, Bill Gates did, and it is the American way. If you can’t think something up rob someone who can and take all the credit ‘cause the other person was a sitting duck. You gave the idea value by selling it, without being sold, it wouldn’t ‘have’ value/a price tag. As unethical, ruthless and stupendous that logic is, it works. As the saying goes: It’s a dog eat dog town.

Third rule; Move it, hut two three four, yes motility is the key to success; it was Hewlett & Packard that made the wandering manager rule. They were/are right, not just to gain information but to use it. We all know how easy it is to become a celebrity? Why don’t we jump at the chance, we have ‘more’ interesting lives than most writers why not bring it to the screen, simply because we don’t want to move and be pushed around? Easy industries fear competition, because it’s so easy to show them up. The easier a job, the harder it is to get it, because the founding thespians/entrepreneurs monopolize it. Own it. ‘We were here first’ is all it comes down to.

Who doesn’t have talent? Who doesn’t have a face/personality that projects ordinary people, who can’t play themselves? God’s script is the best script ever written without contest, and we all have our scripts and we play our roles better than anyone can/could. So what’s up with watching other people do things we can relate to? Individualism? Narcissism? Or simply laziness? Maybe it makes us feel like we belong, as though we aren’t alone, someone ‘cares’ enough about us to imitate us on screen; ‘imitation is the best form of flattery’, make it glitzy and glamorous and it all the more flattering, it allows us to brag to ourselves about how we could do/are doing so much better/more. And then resent them for the money they make and don’t really deserve as our jobs serve greater purpose, ‘we’ perform higher functions. And they make money off standing ovations, simply by applauding ‘us’ and we applaud them for their minute effort? ‘Make it real’ cut the superficiality/glitz out, the closer they get to being us, the more we clap and the more money ‘they’ make.

That’s what reality shows are for… who better than a doctor to play one, an actual patient works better than a dummy with ketchup spurted on his/her belly?, is privacy really ‘that’ big an issue? If ‘creative’ artists can see the real thing to devise the contents and texture of fake blood sauce, why can’t the audience see it? If you’re willing to enact it why not show the real thing? It costs less money, is far more genuine, why not? Maybe the seriousness of our jobs is at stake. Maybe it’s the aforementioned ‘first rule’? We feel that because we don’t use/acquire/require a lot of money to do what we do best we are being exploited. We are robbed of the money we could’ve made if we were frauds/ actors/not playing ourselves but ineffectively attempting to play others. So doctors/professionals write scripts for shows and profit from the ‘art’ rather than the ‘actuality’ while using their credibility to claim to portray the real thing. Of course they couldn’t do this if they were working at the time; Emergency room medical personnel wouldn’t have that kind of time. So the ruse is unveiled they project their version of the past and inject general knowledge/hearsay/ secondhand information into the fictitious enactment of the present/future.

So, we live in an age of corruption, nepotism, gambling, dissatisfaction/anomie /disenchantment and we tolerate it in the name of meritocratic ‘competition’/capitalism. Those who have money generate it; those who don’t, are stuck in themselves, unless they walk the extra mile or simply get lucky, play that winning bid/gamble. Who wants the stats? How many upwardly mobile entrepreneurs took a ‘risk’ requiring only ‘dumb luck’ to get to where they are? All of them. And how many ‘risk takers’ actuality make it? A few, is it because of ‘meritocracy’? Is it the intelligent, the talented, the genius or simply the big street-smart bully with his gang of lumber heads that takes all? What is the ‘capitalist’ debate? It’s a stability model, Survival of the fittest ‘sell yourself’, forget ethics, chuck morality, use sources eat off your daddy’s pocket. The rich get richer and the poor get poorer, we know why, you know why? Then what is the problem why stick with a disparate system that doesn’t work?

Insecurity arrogance, we are afraid of ‘real’ competition, we are afraid of getting our worth, in the words used to describe the alternate system of government of the Marxist Lenin ‘To each according to his/her needs, from each according to his/her ability”. Russia had 100 % literacy, 100%employment and was the best scientific innovator in the world at that time, under that rule, in his time. The statistics speak for themselves. We’d rather stick to chance/faith/the gamble than rise/fall to ourselves: our actual worth, true merit. To live in a world where words actually mean something, where right is right and wrong is wrong, justice ‘is’ served. No, we find comfort in lies, fraud and acting. We find comfort in the idea of being ‘blessed’ with no effort/fault of our own. We alienate ourselves from truth because we are afraid of how it might hurt: always going for grabs, crying over missed ‘opportunity’, deriving satisfaction from winning that whopping fortune from a silly old lottery ticket. We don’t care about merit, of ‘whether’ we ‘deserve’ money. We use the word in our defense, but no, it isn’t merit: It’s gambling and no ethic/religion/moral can defend it.

How is ability or need measured? I don’t agree with that philosophy/concept, simply because there is no real measure of aptitude or requirement. There’s test-taking , but that measures test-taking skills, your ability to reproduce and memorize information collected and discovered by somebody else, that is what will take you to Harvard/MIT(no Einstein or Thomas Edison there, neither went to any fancy schmancy schools, no ‘inventor’/’creative’/.‘genius’ ever did, feel free to contest me on that, even Harvard admits it’s true) and/or having a rich parent with connections not test taking skills, but people with connections, with rich daddies with similar jobs ‘do’ better, than people who get good scores at ivy league schools, because they have know-how, nepotism works, look at Bush he’s no exception, what holds him up? His government, his lobby, the senate that supports him, he’s not doing a one-man job; it’s the entire constitution, who in the UN council voted for the war in Iraq? The US vetoed the majority vote. Who in the US senate did ‘not’ vote for the Iraq war? Was it Kerry, no…Ladies and gentlemen, the senate controls the president. Bush’s first term, a lot of Muslims voted for him, because of Hilary Clinton’s New York address, in which she supported Israel against Palestine to win the New York Jewish majority and become senator. The second time ‘round Bush Jr. had a Christian evangelist following, after Condoleezza Rice, President’s ‘speech writer’ (and daughter of a ‘priest/preacher’ was it? No…but something similar), wrote Mr. Bush a tirade with the word ‘crusades’ on emphasis: The next president of the United States? Who knows?

No, it is not about ability or need but simply fairness, ‘equal’ opportunity, we were ‘All’ created with ‘equal’ rights , we should have an equal education , an equal standing in society and equal opportunity to do what we can with Passion and ‘skill’. I’m not saying everybody should be a doctor, but everyone should be given the ‘chance’ to make that ‘choice’ irrespective of class/status/money/where friends and family stand. We should take/give tests, that is how we commend/use the knowledge accumulated by great minds and excelling in the right tests makes us job-worthy, information/time efficiency is what is tested and is ‘very’ useful. Maybe like most of Europe we should have a socialist government where education and basic provisions are free for all? Quality control, standard and standardization: Who/what will insure that? Corrupt officials; is it a matter of trust or being trustworthy? Insecurity jumps right back , it’s as though we trust ourselves to foul up and therefore ‘try’ nothing, ‘stability’ model ,peace: leave things as they are and whine about it. That is our dictum and our fault.

A system of equal opportunity, ‘capitalism’ assumes a zero-sum game, i.e. all jobs are occupied(classical economic full employment assumption), all resources are efficiently used, the scenario is as ‘perfect’ as it can be and success and failure is up to the players even though there is a grand divide between the haves and have-nots. China is still 80% communist and her ‘open’ economy works with a parody of rules, regulations and restrictions, this is not a ‘golden’ example of capitalist victory as is so frequently propagated as. The alternate assumptions are simple, there isn’t full employment, jobs are created as people ‘need’ (demandàsupply) work, not people employed as ‘required’. Confusingly the demand supply could work in the opposite direction as jobs ‘pay’, employees are the ‘product/sales item’ not the customers therefore prospective employees should make themselves desirable and hirable. The truth is that it works both ways both employees and jobs are ‘in’ demand , both are created to fulfill/balance-out that demand and both increase over time , the efficiency of this process is questionable. Is the best available person for the job hired setting corruption and nepotism aside? There is still the ‘likeability factor, ‘there is no accounting for taste’, and as Max Weber pointed out complete objectivity cannot be reached, taste will always override commonsense and research, if you ‘don’t like a person, maybe he smells or picked his nose or doesn’t ‘fit’ your individual criterion/taste you will instead hire somebody who does, because you’ll feel more comfortable with/ (have more trust/confidence in) an employee you ‘like’. Even you go against your preference, you will be less tolerant of this person and he/she wouldn’t last very long, irrespective of his/her degree/qualification.

Then there is the ‘right’ applicants are you getting a slice of the ‘right’ cake? Job descriptions/pre requisites are not detailed, the kind of person you want to hire may not even know it. It is a matter of information and motility as well pride and prejudice. People don’t know what they’re best suited for and neither do companies or even career organizations, an organized efficient system would not have these problems. If every member of a population was trained under the same system of schooling, measured by the same criteria then a true evaluation would be possible as was the case in Russia. Presently, it is not possible to evaluate where you stand. After the evaluation process career/job selection would be much easier, as ‘standardized’ schools do not have problems with being ‘recognized’ or ‘good enough’ simply because they are all the same. Equal education and equal opportunity, even if extra-tuitions are not permitted students will be home schooled, and yes ‘advantages’ and disparities will still be there, but a lot of ‘schooling’ prejudice will end. As there will be no complexes about better/worse school/schooling, everyone will believe in a fair chance and put in all they’ve got to be ‘good enough’ for the professions they want to get into respectively. Belief is a strong thing and ‘organization patriotism’ is vile that makes the ‘system’ superior to the individual. You cannot allow people to identify themselves as ‘cogs in a big machine’, we are not that, the individual is higher than the system; individuals create systems not vice versa. ‘Elitist’ ‘English medium’ ‘Cambridge system’ ‘London School system’ remnants of our anglophile heritage, meaningless totems we use to get that extra pomp. there are intermediate students getting scholarships to IVY league schools, their system of education is actually closer to the ‘American’ high school, a lot of ‘accented’ American citizens actually study intermediate when they come here,

1) Well it is because the Cambridge system requires that they take their O’ level exams and ‘then’ two years of A ’levels

2) O'levels/alevels costs a lot more

But ‘our’ false complexity-filled ‘British’ snobbery compels us to look down on them as they resent and look down on us. Then there's the good old ‘British’ inferiority complex, they want to be ‘American’ and think they’re too snotty to be colloquial. I, for one, have from childhood to now been bugged about my ‘so-called’ American accent. Nothing’s acceptable, everything’s inferior AND YET IMPRESSIVE: Leg-pulling horny ‘British’ comedy/mockery.

I had a friend; she went to school on a public bus and a girl in metric SPAT on her, why? O’ level snob. My ‘friend was ‘not’ good-looking, humble, shy and not at all offensive. Her crime was simple: O’ level snob. It’s the same the other way around.

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July 17
hmm
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Bush?

who in the American senate did not vote for the Iraq?

was it Kerry

was it Al gore

was it Bush?

the war would've happened democrats or republicans

Bush's first term: a lot of 'muslims' were specifically voting for Bush jr , because of Hilary Clinton's pro-Israel, antiPalestinian stance in NewYork(the voters there are mostly Jewish , she wanted tto be and bacame a senator)

Is Bush a pawn? all presidents are when you have Countries with 'strong' parlimiantry legislation , an org like the CIA , which will drop u dead if you make one false move and a trillion biggerthings than the media's raving evangelistic sadist 'fortunate son' playing his act.

The point: politics will always be dirty ruthless and 'secretive'



so why don't we just talk abt something interesting and worthwhile instead?

like 'growing trees' :D
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July 16
Forward the revolution,our time is now
Fertilized soil can be dried up to sand: This process cannot be reversed. Sand is useless in agriculture (unless you want to grow a cactus). Then, why do we waste our soil? Why do we throw away seeds? There is not enough food/fruit, not enough plantation and too much pollution, a depleting ozone layer, global warming, and what do we do? Ignore the basics. Plant a tree for crying out loud! We’ve known about how easy it is from kindergarten, plant a seed, used fertilizer depending on the PH level of the soil, water it (if you have enough water to live on , you have enough to water a plant) give it sun and air , if there are any further complications, read up on gardening , it’s doesn’t take a genius its not rocket science. We have fundraisers to build (ghost) schools, why not seed raisers to plant trees in those schools and elsewhere.

Electricity, it is easier to generate it than to steal it. What’s common though? Why? Lack of information, knowledge, take a pair of apples stick too cheap electrodes in it and let there be light, Thomas Edison worked at a railway station, how rich could he be? The problem with us is we’d rather charge whatever energy we have in a violent or criminal cause, we think it’s easier and smarter to us nitrogen fertilizer to blow things up than it is to use it to make Eden on earth. We have the misconception that it is easier to steal/destroy than create/grow, simply because the former is faster, to quote the lyrics of a song I forget “One tree to make a thousand matches, It only takes one match to burn a thousand trees” I say ay, forward the revolution to this, I say we don’t lack brain power/aptitude, what we do lack is a positive spirit, the surge to embrace the simplicity of functioning goodwill, we’d blame Big bad bush or Al-Qaeda for all our problems , who are the target? Us: civilians, and who are the recruits? Don’t look to far the answer is just the same, if governments and terrorists are bad because the play at the masses (Shakespeare’s mob) with jolts of fear and bouts of destruction, we are bad because we play along , we join in.

Who gives Bush power? His government. Who gives government power? People. The people are us. WE: the youth of the nation, the drawing/sitting room intellectual critics, it is us. What do we do to make things better? What do we do with our knowledge? Frustrate ourselves label ourselves cogs in a big machine , with no spirit of innovation or entrepreneurship we scout for jobs and complain of their unavailability, when we ‘can’ create jobs for ourselves, silicon valley wasn’t built in a day? Do our engineers not know how to build solar panels, why buy the technology when we can build it at home, improvise it, innovate it, develop it, we have the resources, and we have the information, what stops us? Laziness support/ funds? What pushes us down? Did apple have ANY OF THOSE THINGS to begin with , the answer is that we push ourselves down , we undermine our own abilities ‘cause we’d rather work at a ‘multi-national corp.’ or a chemical plant then use ‘simple’ ideas to better ourselves. Do it as a side thing? Do something? What is the point of knowledge that is practically beneficial when we’re sitting ducks, not using it, not putting ideas to action? Praxis: our savior , as long as we laze around wait for others to take action , we see the fault in their ways , criticism equals frustration , Do it yourself , rise , speak , work implement , the time , is now. Your time is now. Unfortunately only children/young people who have neither experience skill nor degrees to actually work efficiently and maturely are the ones that are interested, the rest of us, the people who can, would rather mingle at silly parties say spiteful things, frustrate ourselves with politics and like any distressed damsel await a hero/angel/miracle to save us. “Waiting for the barbarians” we whine passively deft in our purpose, crowned with a fool’s glory, writhing in self molded pain

And what would passionate hot-blooded young Semi-skilled half-educated labor do? Children of the Y-generation brought up to question and weep over the treachery of Israel, the unfairness that rules our planet derives our attention, grown up knowing about , relishing over matters we have no actual control of, what happens when you frustrate yourself with your lack of control? Deviance: destruction, emotional withdrawal, anomie, deregulation disenchantment, fighting, war and for what? Another song’s lyrics “War, what is good for, absolutely nothing”: The little people dependent on authority on illogical rules and laws that stifle us, choking confining, what Islamic org motivates growth or education, or the self-reliant beautiful teachings of the Quran? Two words: jihad and superpower, that’s all we hear from our Maulvis and yes there are missionaries (expeditions funded by our Zakaat) sent to the states to tell people that ‘dogs’; should not be kept as pets as they are ‘Na-pak’. Yes, that’s where the money goes, educated and pillaged by idiocy and ignorance, we are the fools ladies and gentleman, we fund the taking of our children’s lives by overextended drug abuse, in Kashmir, in Afghanistan , in Waziristan and we account for the ‘welfare’ of sadistic ‘religious scholars’ that we deem ignorant. It is in fact ‘Us’ , as we don’t care about how our banks spend our money , we don’t care about what our ‘Zakaat’ is funding ,we don’t bother to take that one extra step. We think ‘politics’ and using a fancy vocabulary makes us ‘concerned’ citizens.

Well, rise march take off your blindfolds, stop duping yourself, you are the enemy and the victim, hoodwinked and foolish. Epitomic ideal figurines representative of how ‘jahaalat’ (the age of ignorance), lives on and we breed it.
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July 11
belief orange and tango
" I'd like to be under the sea in an octopus's garden by the shore"-the beatles har pal muskurahut jaan ke paar asli zindagi maazoor aur bad haal manzoor hai ya naheen , dil farogh zinda aaj idhar eik saya eik roshan diya eik aazmaish eik dor ki eik mustaqbil ki eik aur char chand ki roshni sooraj dhaley aur muzboot aazmaish kaam aur dil jaan ki jiyo jaago laroo marro lekin darna manna hai- me"five minutes ago? here we are again you and I wondering why do u wonder and visit and lurk??? we're all in hiding either from or with ourselves burried in commericialism drama and crowd life

or sitting alone in the dark

I'm not into literature either , Junaid(in testimonials) called me 'La belle dame sans merci" so I was hoping you'd differ , all I want are simple discussions on the news, math and things to that effect, numerology even, did you get my report.
I'm not into literature, I like shakepeare but I'm too literal and objective to go one the wandering 'lit 'freak path.

I was studying computers last year , figured I'd switch to law , couldn't leave math alone , so I opted for econ, math1 math2 stats1 stats2 'very' technical
even eco is a bit.
I don't like theoretical physics and 'God' philosophy... it feels like speculation without reall boundaries.Just my opinion , not an ultimate 'truth'

I don't know last summer, there was a train crash around Karachi and the number of dead were far more significant , it happened cos the conducter/driver couldn't read a signal and 'our' trains are very old. I think just as 'bollywood' projects , (in movies like 'Dil hai hindustani,even rang de basanti) that the first politically correct move is to blame it on 'terrorism and pakistanis , though technically there was not a single Pakistani in the sept11 attacks or even in the Indian plane hijacking , Arabs and afghans are 'not' Pakistani... the idea is to bring the neverending conflict of kashmir to the table.
Its time , India, its media and its politicians stop dragging 'Pakistanis' into it , 'cause that gives Fox news and Bush an excuse to drag us in , and we are geographically in a delicately strategic position as 'we' were during the last world war... we have enough crap,refugees and drugs fleeting from the Afghan border , afghanis , the Taliban who don't even recognize us as muslim , who blame Pakistan and Ayub Khan's failings for their post-war disaster.Pakistan as usual (it always happens during military rule) was being america's scared little lapdog, and still is
Its understood that drugs trade orgs fund terrorist activities in and around Afghanistan , but no one's doing anything about the poppy feilds?
the Taliban , their link to al-Quaeda? no proof , no admittance nothing
bin Laden? who is he? 'where' is he?not Pakistani that's for sure.
It's all a ploy to get Afghanistan and Pakistan undercontrol , cos we're right in the middle of everything literally. Everyone knows that the Iraq war was/is for oil
and now Iran? if they had weapons , the weapons would be a threat in themselves and no 'idiot' Bush would dare to attack.
Except if there was a nuclear forcefield like in Asimov's science fiction story "There breeds a man" it would suffer a huge loss in energy that it would be best avoided even then/if.
they will not have Pakistan's support unless Musharraf darling wants anarchy and chaos, see Balochistan used to be a part of Iran , and the tribes in waziristan and joining up with tribes in NWFP and Afghanistan , because they feel wronged and as Mushy pointed out 'they are and have been wronged" and the military a divide weakened force wouldn't 'want' to stop them.And couldn't anyway , '50' officials 'kidnapped' in Iraq, how can bush expect dear old Mush to control anything here?
You want explanations? it's no conspiracy it's all around you , open ur eyes use ur head and work with things you 'do' have control over like global warming/dimming, go green , plant the seeds that you so often throw away , they come cheap there's not enuf food in the world and there's a whole lot of pollution , not to mention dried up soil becomes sand and cannot be recovered. I know its a gradual process but do you rally want the world to turn into a desert washing away by a meg tsunami?
cos hey you like everyone else would rather bicker and speculate abt dumb old powerhungry politicians and their transperant mindgames.7:31 AM | Add a comment | Send a message | Permalink | Trackbacks (0) | Blog it
July 08
golden panorama
Ĥeroin chic says:

i cant stand "lol" either

dee dee says:

lol too

dee dee says:

that's automated too typed after a joke even when u don't feel like laughing

dee dee says:

but then how do you convey an actual laugh?

Ĥeroin chic says:

some people actually say lol in real life

dee dee says:

a feeling

dee dee says:

empathic magic a click a a volcanic mush gush

dee dee says:

an actual deep meandering thought a lonely magnetic want a dopey dazed current of affection

dee dee says:

deep subtle nearolinguistic heart to heart

dee dee says:

meshed into a 'hiccup'??? a very cheesy

dee dee says:

finale It was a usually boring lazy sunday

Friday, October 5, 2007

severence

John N. Mitchell - "The finest steel has to go through the hottest fire.

if-Rudyard Kipling

I have mosquito bites all over my left arm...
this isn't random at al its casual colloqu... but not random...
i'm still a die-hard salinger fan and am happy to learn that flatuates is a word for 'farts'...hmm

Dawning is an age an era an epoch
a feathered bird shooting thru the skies
in eminent and caustic glory
rise and fear

haven't been doing anything much , I had a fight with some guy yesterday, we weren't really friends anymore, anyhow, 'but you know me, well maybe you don't.
Well... I have habit of beibg in denial when it comes to letting go.. I whine I annoy I poke and badger 'why don't we talk' anymore?' "why are u being mean to me?' etc etc and get what's coming
comeuppance(pence?) karma retribution I don't know.

well I'm never speaking to him again.
' removed him from my facebook list
and feel like a real dumb ass for clinging so long
I mean we were'friends' not in a 'relationship'
friends don't break-up

'friends' part
on civil terms


that dictum's a fluke
wake-up call finally answered

but i guess i should've taken it in, understood when he started teasing me abt dating this was obviously going to be ephemeral .
so great
slow-learner
toading to the finish line
musing upon tomorrow's lie


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