Bad day

Practicing typing consistently is one thing; dying inside is another.

I hate everything I write and who I am but not at all; because I should not.

I don`t feel guilty and I should not.
The truth does hurt.

And being a push over is not a good thing.
If you keep compromising you are made to.

It`s not that you`re taken for granted just that the more you keep fulfilling demands that you don`t want to fulfill; then they keep coming. You have to say no at some point. And the `duty` to fulfill certain demands is only a spouse and a parent`s.

Otherwise you`re doing a disfavour to yourself and others and longer you take to say no, the harder it is for the person whom you`re bowing down to take it.

So it is my fault my initial yeses make the final nos harder to bear/fathom/tolerate; the final no becomes hurtful because your initial compromises were not understood as compromises.

So, I `am` at fault; I compromise and there is the misconception that I `want` to give-things-up. But, how can a person not understand, that giving things up under coercion and not by choice is painful? DUH!

And by taking my things or throwing them away you`re not doing me a favor? Why is that so incredibly hard to grasp; throw away your own trash before other peoples. Don`t touch other people`s things; full-stop/period. Alternatively, at least; ask permission. `Genuinely` not like if a person says `No`, `you` explode and expect no roars back.

The difference between a request and a demand.
That`s what it is.

Ingratitude that`s what it is, when a person makes virtually non-existent demands; then the few demands made should be taken seriously.Except the only way to get even a few demands satiated is to make frequent demands, that way when you`re told no it does not hurt that bad Like sending in ten million job applications,or query letters a few rejections won`t kill ya.
But if you apply to only a-few/two jobs rejections hurt-with-out-end/tremendously.

Blogs are not for ranting but personally I feel a good rant can be turned into a nice piece of literature. Books/screenplays have the climatic and anti-climatic rant; why is it unpopular to blog-rant/rant-blog?

because the rant in books and movies is illuminated from fictional characters, whereas a rant on a blog is glued to the blogger; a label. A negative label.